a year to grow

(release)
the moment i took my thoughts and wrote them down for all to see, was the moment i realized i no longer cared about what others thought about the person that i was becoming. 
it's happening again.

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stress-less

I think the more that we stress about what others think about who we are as individuals, the less likely we are allowing our souls to be as vulnerable as we'd like them to be.
Vulnerable. You like that? I do.
The year of 2017 was a big one. It was a HAUL of a year. I never in a million years would have expected any of the circumstances that occurred in that year to actually happen. Here we are, just one week into 2018, and it's already set off with a bang. 
I've grown to believe that the more that we put on our plate no matter what it is related to, the more proactive we become for our future selves. Challenging yourself and your work ethic in a way that helps you grow within yourself. To understand the depths of what you're capable of doing. We can all be our own superheros, it's just up to us whether we want to accept the challenge or not. 
"You're crazy. You work so hard. You train too hard. You're too strict with your diet. You don't eat enough." 
Interesting! Your opinion is flaccid it is not a fact. Always remember that. 
The way that we choose to live our lives is our choice for ourselves. If you are doing something that you truly believe in your head that will benefit your future self or bring you happiness in some way... DO IT. What is the worst thing that could happen? You learn something? 
God forbid.
Never regret any decision you make for yourself. This is an opportunity for you to become better as a person, even if it doesn't work out. Just trust that the choice that you made will bring you some form of benefit in the long run, no matter what. Always, always, always see the brightness of the sun. 

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refrain from resistance

Many of us go through life experiencing the what-if's that passed us in time. I wonder what would have happened if I had done __________. Why did you hold back, anyway? My question to you all is if you have a thought, an idea, a desire or dream... Why are you waiting to do it? We live in a time where the opportunities for us as humans are absolutely endless.
I will never forget that feeling I felt when I decided I was moving home to Kelowna after literally swearing I would never move back here. I was coming back to visit my mom for a few days as a getaway. I was ready to dip my toes back in the water of the city I used to call home, although I was terrified. I was coming down the connector which overlooked Peachland and I saw Okanagan lake. My eyes filled with tears and my heart sunk through the floor of my car. I decided, I was going to quit my job that week. Yup, decided. I'm quitting the job I worked so hard to achieve, and move back to the city that brought me so much confusion, bad energy, growth and love. I was ready to face my past, and move forward, and holy Hannah did I ever come home to everything I left behind, but it didn't phase me. I made a choice that I was not going to associate myself with the negativity I was previously involved with. I literally started over, and it was amazing. In the six months that I have been home, I have learned everything from opening up with a whole new level of vulnerability, trusting the process of life, accepting that people do come and go in your life, and all of this is perfectly normal. 

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I learned so many amazing things about myself while I was living in Vancouver, including adaptability. Taking things that just happen in life and saying to myself, okay. This thing that happened is a lesson that future me is going to be like yes girl you learned about this and now you know how to handle it, so move forward. 
I have stopped living in the past, I stopped looking at what caused me distress previously and instead looking at what will be in the future, and believing that I can get there. Do you follow?
It's all mental. Overthinking, racing thoughts, stress. We've all been there. What I learned that worked for me is taking a step back, thinking about all that is causing this stress and anxiety, and processing why it's making me feel that way. Teach yourself how to process instead of react. In recent weeks, I have taught myself how to meditate. Every night before bed, 10 minutes, is my time to do the following:

• Find three things that I am thankful for that happened that day
• Remove my thoughts from what exists in the outside and bringing all awareness to the inside
• Settle my mind and know that no matter what may have occurred in the day that caused stress, that it was nothing more than a lesson. Onward and upward.

Know that the time that you dedicate to yourself before you rest is the time that your mentality can regenerate. This is what we call self-care. Some may even consider it loving yourself. Whatever it is to you, it will generate nothing but health and positivity, and the benefits are endless.

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from darkness to light

Being in a place where you feel unsettled and unsure, requires nothing more than time, time, time. I am a firm believer that human beings are capable of achieving practically anything in life, the key is to set yourself in a position where you, and only you, believe that you can get there. Encourage yourself that the choices that you are making are good for you. The negativity you may find in life isn't actually negative, rather it is just a form of teaching that life has. Accept challenges. Push yourself. Take time to unwind. Grow yourself. This year is less about resolutions for me. I'm focusing strictly on taking life by the reins, being scared shitless, and enjoying the ride. Here's to 2018, and another year around the sun. 

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